i woke up with the noon sun banging on my door.
haha - i have been granted the permission to bullshit like how i have in the previous paragraph. hold on while i change from the crooning voices of MLTR to something more .. groovy? i just spent the last few hours convalescing from a 40hrs day. yes peepz, itz possible to have REM while walking, talking, eating, chatting - just living. well, u get it. no..actually, i doubt u have. i make absolutely no sense. yesterday i submitted a paper i recollect nothing from. i do not remember what i wrote, what the study was about, and what the results were. and so, this is why im so convinced i've just awaken, either from REM or a realllllly bad nightmare.
yesterday, i didnt sleep. that is not just a figure of speech. i REALLY did not sleep. did my lab report and miracalously finished it 2mins prior to its submission due time. phew.. an amazingly incredible wave of relief awashed me subsequently. that saying - 'a load off ur shoulders'. it is real. i literally felt a "LOAD" was taken off my shoulders. for now at least. dont fret, i always find something to worry about.
ling and i went to the city afterwards to meet up with sham. and since the night before, in a chat, raz and i planned to meet for dinner, we ALL met up for dinner. adik, sham, raz, abang, ling and i. had chicken briyani and i realised i havent eaten for a whole day as well. hrmm..except for those chicken sausages at 5 in the morning. HAH.
it felt good. us meeting up. not sure if it was just my imagination but everything felt like it was back to normal. no animosity. no backstabbing. no bitching. no unspoken words, no lies. just all of us - different individuals with different personalities, different us making a gang. well.... all were there cept' for umar whom we assumed wld rather stay home, and liu who ...errMm.. technically cant go out on a school night. i think (???).
afterwards, all of us went our seperate ways. raz went to MAKE a movie (??), adik, ling and sham went back to their homes respectively. so did abang and i. house was in a mess. so... i had to clean up. MAJOR MAJOR clean up. showered and i fell asleep. was meant to watch an hindustani movie. but was way toooo tired to annoy abang. hehehe...
nope. no news of him. i think its alright.
i realised the past monthS have just been me convincing myself that it's now two lives, not one. my-mine and he's-his. and that is alright. or maybe, this moment is just one of those 'moments' when rationality is present and i'm all sensible. maybe there'll be more months worth of convincing? then what? then, what'll happen when "irrationality" re-posesses me?
ok. now im gona make my bed. hang up my clothes and vacumm the house. love u, love me, love love.
ambience supported by >> "still loving u" - scorpions [p/s i miss pa!]
