+ 10:42pm -. aside from 'repairing' my computer - resetting it from 'safe' to 'standard' mode, i did absolutely nothing remotely productive today. in fact, i have no idea how time flew past with what lil i did!? yeah. my blog now looks like its juz been attacked by pics. blood boiling experience - putting all these pics up. shutterfly wont cooperate, pop ups, internet connection.. gosh! but then i remember how hmm.. miserable i was last night when my comp didnt work. yesh. in life, u take for granted whats available and only recognise its value when its gone from u. todays' tot of the day!
star light. star bright. first star i see tonight. wish i may. wish i might. wish upon a star tonight
+ i see starz! - yiippee* i just realised, from my window, i can see the melby skyline and the stars!!! awesome view. yesh. hmm. perhaps, if im up to it, i might move my study table to the window; so i am able to be accompanied by twinkling stars while i study. or maybe, just leave things as they are - with my bed under the window, so i can stargaze juz before i sleep. sweetness* nopes. "the stars" remain to be hidden. one more thing to look forward to - my deja vu' walk - from cp to home, i look up and follow its directions. it seems lately, the stars are misguiding me...
+ the vast amt of time in my hands forces me to catch up with my thots. "i think too much". indeed i do. i've cliche-ed that phrase in this blog. and yet. tis' somehow a form of conviction - for myself, for ive embraced and accepted the fact that it is who i am. oh dear! i became my worst nightmare. from the bottom of my misguided heart, i apologise with all the sincerities possessed in me. this love is unbreakable. humbled. truly humbled and down on my knees its brought me. love. "tis human nature to take whats available for granted only to recognise its value when its taken away from us".. so tis' true. oh so true. and so i've realised. for, i am just playing my game. and when the game is over like it has now, then i'd realise the value of whats been taken away from me. blessed and cursed with my ability to reminisce. hark! who goes there? - tis' juz my foolish self. a bleeding heart within my clasp and brought down on my knees by the inevitable "l.o.v.e"
+ 5:57pm - frustrated the hell out of me with this safe mode crap that my lappie has been on. so.... I FINALLY did something (im not even sure what i did) and voila'! its alright now. well.. for now anywayz. hi LiU!* [she's online].
+ so, i spent the entire day in bed. nah. not a figure of speech - truly spent the entire day zoning in and out of sleep. i amaze myself with how much i can sleep! i think owen knocked on my door a few times. the final time was ruzi calling me. hah! ooh! farah's called earlier. she arrived this morning at 4am. we're meeting tmr so she can pass me the money. i think i'll still take the train/ bus. firstly - it'll be an adventure for me. i'll go out earlier than early obviously in case i get lost. secondly, i'm only gona be 'dragging' ONE 20kg luggage, a laptop a hand carry. think i can do it? i hope so!! thirdly, it'll obviously be cheaper than taking a cab! and fourthly, it'll be an experience!
+ ok. nothing to update. juz miss the girls heapz. its sooooOO quiet without u girls man! nvm. see youS in just 3 dayz! hehehe.. can't wait for singapore. can u believe this is like the first in yrs since i packed my bag more than a day ahead of my departure? haha.. yesh. hmm.. i've even cleaned my room. ok. i shall shuddup now. look at how much i've typed!? and this is with NOTHING TO UPDATE! mwuahahaha*
