been blogging UN-me short entries. i shld be studying. but what do i do instead? blog. the last thing on my "should-do" list. it is technically tomorrow. so. gdmorning peoples! i p-w-o-m-i-s-e, after blogging, i will study for that horrendous test tomorrow. urhm. i mean today. oh! george kelly's "amazing" is AMAZING! new obsession! =)
things i hate in melbourne: city-loop trains. winter. the adverts - they scream to get their msg across. ppl who dont drink coffee. exams. i think it's just so unfair for some ppl [ie. me]; who dont do good under pressure! geeh* i dont know why i am complaining. after all, everyone's got at least 1 or 2 assignments already out of the way. almost half the sem's gone past and i havent even got any due; much less submitted anything! today, in psych of language lecture, ling and i DISCOVERED we have a 'take-home-test' due in [originally on the 30th]! but has now been postphoned to the 6th of sept. i know. JOY! =) still. the point is, we didnt even know we had an assignment due in! omg right?! we're *walking-catastrophes*! GET WITH THE PROGRAM bitches! <------i meant that in a good way! *winks* =)
strange things are happening in this world. my psych language professor only has hair on the left side of his head. and each week, ling and i question out loud why he cant just shave his whole head OR try brush the hair so that it doesnt look weirdly just on the left? creepers* then he makes jokes and we so .. do not understand. =/p. hrmph* maybe its just us???
on my way home, on the train today, this druggie-looking-dude collapsed between the train door and victoria-park train-platform. uhm ..LIKE HALLOoo?! The O.C. is going to start in uhm. lyke 15mins AND he HAD TO collapse and convulse halfway IN the train?! SO the train was at a stand-still for 15mins!!! The paramedics and police came and were quite efficient. i reckon the dude had an overdose or something. white stuff were coming out the sides of his mouth -like in movies! scareeee stuff. i feel so mean. a dude's dying and im worried about my 'ryan'. MWUAHAHA* i must've scared the shit outta owen when i came home panting and practically screaming "THE O.C.!!!" =) HAHAHAHAHA..
when we finally reached my stop; bell station, this teenage mum FORGOT to take her kids! HOW CAn anyone FORGET TO TAKE THEIR KIDS. happy-happy walk out of the train. handphone? maybe. BUT KIDS!? someone must have pressed the "emergency button" coz the train halted as it barely moved and this lady came out with a crying toddler and a 5-6yrs old kid suckling on a lollie; the lady screaming "excuse me!?". how much more irresponsible can the mum be?! i mean, C'MON! not just one kid! TWO!!!! man-oh-man. im telling yer! there is something seriously wrong with this world. i mean WHERE IS THE LOVE PEOPLES!? just-SHOCKING-how -ridiculous-ly-lack-of-love there is in this world! bla*
manssss... my prince charming sure am taking a long time getting armoured and astride on his white horse-y to rescue me from this oblivion of boredom my life has been for awhile now. i'm somewhat torn between being glad and seriously depressed for *rational-times* like now - when i really think bgr just ain't cut it for my life; being a 'driven-modern-down-with-love' chic like moi-self. but u know, it just gets really depressing when u listen to love songs or see other chics canoodle-ing with 'their' guys. sure, you get all cynical. go "urgh!! gross" and kinda "reassure" urself they're gona break up anyways. but, being "there", i sorta know, when in love you sorta "live-for-the-moment-regardless-what-the-future-may-hold" and i miss being able to "follow-what-my-heart-says"; the "gut-feeling". see, this is what i've figured out. yesh. it isnt that i dont trust guys. i was never jilted nor played nor cheated on. in fact, i was in healthy, reciprocal love relationships. ive learnt, yeah. ultimately, regardless the-countless-promises to love forever, be together forever, bla bla bla; unless you're bounded in a marriage [and ur partnership and love is legalised in blk & white] there's noone you can really count on cept', you, yourself and your family. what i dont trust is neither love nor guys. rather, myself when in love. that "kin-when-in-love" just become this posessed-monster-psycho-bitch, who loses all sense of rationality. she drowns herself voluntarily into her own love-filled-world, where she compose HER own; not *his-and-her*, love-story. how pathetic! bleurgh*
now that i am out of the loop and am "outside-looking-in" i so see how blinded i was. yeah. love is blind. BUT shitss! did i have to be THAT blardy blind!? remember how in secondary school i made that pact with MYSELF? [yesh. even then, i was talking to myself]. hah. i know this may sound kinda silly but i have sorta re-surrected that pact again. i shalt not "fall in love" [is that what its called?] until i am positive i can be MY OWN PERSON. i will not be afraid. i will make my own decisions and argue my beliefs. i realise i was immature-ly coward-ly in my prev rships always opting to avoid an issue OR give in. granted. i hate arguments. but heck. its bound to happen and arguments and fights are only gona make the love stronger yesh? BESIDES. its not like i have guys waiting in line now! saddening. yesh.
*i just wanna say. i never really loved you anyway* la-di-da-di-da! its 1:26am and i am crooning to the corrs. hah! gawd how i hated em before. IM L I B E R A T E D ! =)
ok. i shall study now. all-night-er it is. bla* i shall get ppl commenting i blog too much tmr. oh! tmr's 23 degrees. =) heh
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