read the signs. wasnt right. i was stupid for a while. swept away by you. and now i feel like a fool. so confused. my heart's bruised. was i ever loved by you? out of reach.. so far. i never had your heart. out of reach couldnt see we were never meant to be. catch myself from despair. im drowning if i stay here. keeping busy everyday. i know i will be ok. out of reach. so far. i never had your heart. out of reach. couldnt see we were never meant to be... im not in love. it's just a silly phase im going through. just because i called you up. dont get my wrong. u think u've gotten me.

~ Dearest Bloggie*

= last night i re-arranged my entire room. i think i've figured out why i always wake up feeling cold and .. uh. just generally freezing my arse off! my bed was by the wall. which is under the window - not really. just sorta under the window. off by maybe 5cm away from the window? so, i've decided to go with the original plan and moved my bed againts the "middle wall" and my table under the window. i heard from somewhere that humans study better in the cold??? arranged new pics into my frames. generally family picts cept for one frame. or.. wait. two? haha.. others, just pinned on my noteboard. yeah. noteboard used to pin notes NOT picts! haha...

= arh..i finished spring cleaning my entire room by 9; vacumned and all. oh oh. i finally changed my sheets. yellow now. so the old neon pink bed sheets dont hurt the eyes too much. made my bed. i have too many pillows. arranged my pillows and took them off again. the royal princess needs to sleep. so, i fixed "you got served" disc B on. used to drive ps* bonkers everytime we watch vcds and i'd put it on from the second disc. fell aslp with "what a girl wants" on. abang came home and went to bed early i s'pose.

= today marks the first day that i went to school. happy. delirious and totally fabolous-O! the weather was not so.

"The sun will come out, tomorrow.. bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow....
[dont know the rest of the lyrics]...." - annoyed the hell out of ling yest. with this song. the sun DID NOT come out today.

= the day started out pretty rountine-ly. woke up, noone was home, showered, started to straighten my hair and, as usual, ended up givin up [convincing myself that my hair is straight naturally anyways], packed my bag and vowed to do the laundry tonight.

= planned to drop by at ling's place before heading to uni together. BUT...... guess what? despite the umpteen times going to and fro ling's place, i still didnt fail to take the wrong train! rolls eyes* a totally-kinnie-thing to do aye? took me quite a while to realise that, i've never in my entire life; moreover entire 4 yrs here, went past a stn such as toroonga. nor, knew it existed! so, i got off at glen-something station (NOT glenferrie where i was meant to get off at!). something was wrong!! is it possible that i took the wrong train?! AGAIN?! bleurgh* and so indeed it was...

= retraced my steps. dropped off at richmond where the weather suddenly became ridiculously freezing cold. the 1min to the arrival of the train was the longest 1min ever.. then ling called and asked me to wait for her there anyways. damn. shouldnt have picked up the phone. hahaha.. waited in the 'tunnel' for her and caught the next train to uni together.

= class was... get this! - INTERESTING! probability? remember that? felt like a walk down deja vu lane - drawing of the fern trees and the matrix boxes. equations. daaaamnnn... and i tot i escaped maths when i took psychology as a major. goes to show, maths is all around. i'll bet maths-fans everywhere are dying to just say it: i told u so. right-eO. im lame-ishly crapping lame crap. there u goooo!

PSYCHOLOGY of DECISION MAKING - was a psychedelic class. 19 students from the 80 that used to preside in the lecture halls. from the K lecture halls upstairs; customarily catering to 1000+ students to now, the K TUTE rooms catering only for 20 odd students - where we are now. oh. where. have. they. all. gone? generally, it was relatively under-stand-able. totally cool and i felt priveleged to be in uni. i missed school. yeah. im weird.

= after class, we found out that lab classes are held every second week and this week WAS NOT that second week. wooO*.. no lab. went to the psych office to collect our lab manuals and last semester's lab reports. oOOh* i passed it all. haha.. rosita said i can be a novelist with my "good" crap. marlies was just a bitch. weEE* not gona see her anymore!!!!!!! =) smileZ*

MAXBRENNERS - i think thats how it is spelt. met sham and his friend benny and benny's gf at maxbrenner. umar joined us later. i choked when he called me baby. ling blanja-ed me. hot choc was wayyy cool. i prefer my caramel frap tho.

:: so now, im at farid's place and waiting...... i dont know what we're waiting for. going to RMIT's "pasar malam". i wonder if monash has it... hmm. i shld get myself more involved in school. i vow that this semester, im gona be updated with the latest haps. school-wise i mean. i dont see a reason why not after all. i need work too. i have a resume. focus. focus focus! i have
to entertain ling now. she's bored. hahaha...

:: at a reasonable phase now: "im not in love. its just a phase that im going through" - with or without his mole, i dont like him - ling. hahahahaha.. yeah. so all this whining and winging about being love-less and bf-less? sure, missing the affections. but ultimately, i'm at a stage where im wayyyy too selfish to be involved or entrap anyone into my ambitions. wayyy too many things to do. my complaining about needing a guy, when looked into, is just another thing i winge about to cover emtpy spaces of slience. im blissed where i am now. thank u everyone - who's been in my life for i cannot think of a time before this, when i am content with my social standing. love y'all! muAcKZz* blow me away with ur bright smilezzz!* =)

ps: im net-less at home. for now anyways.... i really oughta call the 'person'.