the birthday girl.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY [bik] ruzi!! YOU! the closest thing i have to a big sister! we've come a long way huh? oh-i-love-you-alot-alot!!! but u know that already. its hard to think of you n' i as adults [???] when it feels like just yesterday we were adamant we were twins. we used to dress up identical. sport the same hairstyle. create the same dreams. remember? we wanted to marry together? no. not to each other silly! hehehe. you have always been there for me bik. n' i feel so blessed i have u in my life.happy birthday bik! you!! my la-ling sister. cousin. mother. aunt. confidante - you! a person filled with passion and respect for the ones and things she loves, mature, independant, and at the same time a KICK ASS groove maker! You fill the world with multi-coloured feel, and rock the worlds of those who know you. honestly, i cannot wait my own return so we can groove n' move to the beats of our colourful dreams. love you to bits and pieces n' all your superfluous imperfections. muakcs* =)

the scary thing about the truth is that sometimes you find it.

i see no reason at all why spending holidays in a uni library consitutes to being an act of loser-fied-ism. really! you'd be amazed; as i have been, at the number of students in this library right now. i actually had to wait a good [actualy annoying] 10minutes just to wait for a vacant computer station. amazing. but then again, could it be also because the impeding exams are only a mere 20 days away? brrrr.. e x a m s. never am i more terrified at a mere articulation of a word. 2 syllables, n' icy rivers is set on rampage in my veins. brrr.. scareee stuff.

if i can only eloquently produce concurrent thoughts such as i do here, with my essay. im writing on mental illnesses. yet again, it amuses me to the core the parody of my course. many times, i catch myself relating to these abnormal behaviour to conveyance of deja vu experiences. me*

i have to go to a medical cntr about my back. it hurts too damn much.