my first time.

two consecutive nights. way to go kins! hahaha. im being silly now. yup-yup! blame it on the caffeine. turns out, i have heaps to do till i can officially proclaim perfection for my labbie. at wak's place now. abang and i spending the night here. today was an alright day. didnt feel even a tad bit hungry. maybe thirsty but i suppose its coz i woke up early [and fell back aslp till 12 noon]- so 1/2 e' day was gone. pretty chilly i reckon. but heck. melbourne. whaddaya expect really?! [another thing to add to my list of "things-not-to-miss-in-melbourne"] - the unpredictable weather!!!

jasy almost decapitated my head when she saw me. ran fm like e' opposite wing of e' hse n' slammed her no-longer-small-body to mine. was attached to me for like the next half hr! she's sooo adorable! like so cute n' ooohhhh GERAM-at-her-TEMBAM! =) GERAM-NYERRRRR! hehehe my self proclaimed "melbourne baby". of course ika is my "singapore baby". hehehe... had nasi ayam. bubuh sumsum. barley drink [with the barley grain]. bandung. n' the normal silly convos us three amigos have when we get together - ah. abg. dan n' i. kal of course is in sg. rem e' times we went swensons n' piza hut after terawikh?! it feels heaps ages ago! watched 'new york minute' - it actually has a gd message in the story line. something about life being a curve ball n' making wrong turns because u nv know a good end might come from tt turn?? yeap.

oops. i owned up to losing wak's GUESS sunnies. been procastinating telling her. [it was actually stolen fm my bag!] well. turns out. she knew! abg told on me! [blardyhell]. anyways. it dont matter. she luuuuurrrvvveee mmmeeeee - her fav niece. almost daughter like =) she wanted to adopt me when i was younger. no offense but im really glad me mama kept me. coz i love me mama like a hellot. like can die for her. like alotalotalotalot... well. u uh. get the idea. =)

berwick always always never ever fails to flood me with mixed feelings - of hate. of love. deja vu. wishing i cld rewind time yet. inversely e' urge to run - i s'pose, *it being where i invested my first two 2 years in, has made 'it' the start up pt of everything in my life = my first time away in a country tt's only fly-able [???] to go bk home. first time i truly felt 'something' [i tnk its called independance??]- other than the comfort of knowing my parents were always gona be there. i mean, i know they will always be there.. but berwick. or rather, aussieland 4yrs back was the first time i knew i HAD TO stand on my own [then maybe after awhile, my parents will come running to rescue me] - haha. what can i say? - im mumsey's bestie n' dada's lil princess *winks*. of course, berwick is where i cried ALOT of nights to sleep. appreciate home n' my family more than ever. the plc where i completely wrecked my mum and her sis' relationship [i think?]. berwick - i found my first love. aside from kensington, i reckon berwick is prolly close in running for 'place-where-kins-saw-life-for-what-it-was'. the first time. it hurts yeah?

right. i better get back to me report. amy's sent tips for my labbie [as according to the deplorable ever changing guidelines set by APA]. she's a bachelor in science. smart ass!

a song from "get over it". by kirsten dunst. watched tt movie here like 10,000 times. love the song. kinda urm where i am now u reckon? the-unknowing-who-the-boy-is. i figured; n' im saying this coz im at my reasonable mode now;: im still young. hallo. like im only TWENTY. i reckon, say boy/s i meet between now and when im 23 is definitely not definite. first boy i see as soon as i turn 23 [24thsept2007], i'll MARRY! HAHAHAHA.. so boys. run! then again right... the mr man u marry someday might not be it* [hence tt instutition called 'divorce']. isnt it unnerving how life can be a hell hole sometimes? - IF NOT MOST TIMES?! =[

dream of me - kirsten dunst.

let me sleep.
for when i sleep,
i dream that you are here
you're mine and all my fears are left behind

i float on air
the nightingal sings gentle lullabies
so let me close my eyes.

and sleep
a chance to dream
so i can see the face
i long to touch. to kiss.
but only dreams can bring me this

so let the moon
shines softly on the boy i long to see
and maybe when he dreams
he'll dream of me.

high beneath the clouds
a whisper to the evening star
they tell me love is just a dream away
a dream away

so let the moon shines softly
on the boy i long to see
and maybe when he dreams
he'll dream of me. dream of me