ma says first love never dies. someway. somehow the-she-n'-he will meet, still. in dreams. in another world. another realm. where forces of nature don't work against em. i hvnt been dreamin about anyone. does tt mean im so lucky to still be untouched by e' eternally pure first love? i decided to divert frm my massive pile of readings-to-do n' blog for abit.
this morning, like many mornings, i lingered in bed; my ears pricked to discern the main door bang shut. home alone. i like going about e' hse knowing noone's home. i can do whatever i want, crank up the music, switch on the tv n' radio silmutaneously, conquere BOTH storeys, hv the heaters on in several rooms w/o abg screamin at me to save electricity, n' even .. erps... walk arnd naked? heh =) t'was a chilly day [again] today. but i was quite the adamant one to still wear my fav new slippers. e' one wak bought me [she also bought me two ralph polos n' a yvessaintlaurent: baby doll perfume i like but didnt buy coz it is "jean's scent"]. ma bought me 3 pretty tops n' a prada perfume. nice!
the school library was ridiculously crowded. even more than actual school days. shocking! aside from the machine eating up my $9 printing value - which i was thankfully reimbursed for, my day was like e'ry other day; boring. student-ish. mudane. n' rrrrrreeeeealllly stagnant. i really cannot imagine or remember a boring-er part of my life. saddening.
i hang w' ling in e' city. n' by then felt a massive headache coming along. awesome. just what i needed! despite our broke state, we had the v.irresistable nandos. our customary 1/2-chicken w' a regular side order ... n' we had our customary 'how-can-this-be-so-good' entree yak which proceeded to talkin about past love, future love.. ah. the norm nitty gritty yakkety yak us girls spend 70% of our time doin when together. the other 30% of course is eating! ha! =)
i came home straight instead of joining the rest at farid's. i was just tired. on the train, there was this reaaaaalllly cute girl! her eyes so blue u can see ur reflection! n' she attempted to talk to me. so i did. adorable! i want kids. bla* right. so nw, im chattin w' alice bout school nerds whose lives revolve rnd uni n' get all defensive when us-normal ppl ask for help.
im listeneing to my loveloss playlist. sappy love songs i avoided like a disease because they remind me too much of certain somebodies. the working theory for me now is: confront ur fears than run coz its only gona chase u more. something like tt. i hv a massive headache. i ate a cold tablet which prolly is not so wise a decision coz i'll be much too groggy for an all nighter. joce asked me out clubbin. im in my pjs. heaven knows is playing. once upon a time, someone sang this n' meant it.
i have blogged just about everything. shall desist this sidetrack n' read nw. sighs.
immalookbackonedayandwishiwasstillastudent.soishouldjustembraceassignmentswithopenarms =/
You - Jennifer Love Hewitt
Hold me now
Stop the morning light from breaking
Something's coming over me
Don't know what it is sub-saving
The clocks expire
They just might change everything
If I don't give you all that's waiting
Who knows what tomorrow will bring
If I try not to need you I'll be hiding
from myself but all
If tomorrow never comes I would do it all again
If the light never breaks through I would stay until the end
If I saved it all for you
I would have my faith again
Then, then I would know it's you
Won't shed a tear for more than just a moment
Try not to let myself go crazy
Tomorrow may not come
So I won't hold you here
Unless you wanna fight about it
I would gladly let you win
Cause I don't need to write this ending
If I just trust the stillness
Somehow it won't hurt so bad
If tomorrow never comes
I would do it all againIf the light never breaks through
I would stay until the end
If I saved it all for youI would have my faith again
Then, then I would know
If tomorrow never comes
I would do it all againIf the light never breaks through
I would stay until the end
If I saved it all for youI would have my faith again
Then, then I would know
Then, then, then I would know it's you
