subject: heal the world.
time: 8:23pm
music: she will be loved (acoustic) - maroon 5
mood: loved.lived.syukur.
the number on the screen was 37,000 ticking rapidly like something you'd see on the stocks channel. 5 minutes ago, the number exploded to 58,000 - 21,000 bodies washed up?
"what were their last thoughts?"
"did they 'sense' it like urban legend says pre-death ppl do?"
"did they see their lives flash before their eyes before life got ripped out of their heart?"
-these i wonder-
One.
petal.
falls.
One.
chance.
gone.
i was a kid again. asking all these questions, most of which i knew noone had the answers to. but i still wanted answers. don't we all? closure. we want closure. HE is mad at us n' this.. HE sent this: a sign of the imminent judgement day. the Qu'ran, in its subtle ways had mentioned nature wiping out a giant mass of people.
is this it? the 'nature-wiping-out-lives-in-masses' bit?
in all confusion, my goosebumps stand. im afraid.
it tears my heart just imagining what couples, mothers, wives and kids must've felt a split second before they were face-to-face with what turned out to be nature's biggest massacre - to die as such.
bismillahirahmaniruhim.
"ya Allah ya tuhan ku,
yang maha esa, yang maha kekal dah yang maha penyayang.
tetap kan la iman hamba, dan jauhkan la hamba daripada kejahilan yang nyata di dunia ini.
terangkan la hati hamba dan berikan la hamba kesedaran dan petunjuk, agar hamba selamat hidup di dunia dan di akhirat
ampuni la dosa ku, dosa2 kedua ibu-bapaku, adik2ku dan, dosa2 semua umat muslimin dan muslimat yang masih hidup, dan yang sudah pergi"
amin.
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the-one-sitting-read.
once again. im a genius (who has a disability in spelling genius. but wth?!). unlike times of past when i took a lifetime and a half to complete a lab report AND be sufficiently pleased with it, i completed the lab report this time arnd, before mid-day AND i am blardy proud of it too..so. yay* for me. if i cld do cartwheels, i would be puking from being over-cartwheel-ed (??). dressed my age today which i am very proud of. yes yes. instead of dressing 10yrs too young. printed at zap-it since we're printer-less. n' then submitted the lab-report at TMC. after which, ma, ika and i went shopping in town. it felt surreal. ma in town? can i imagine her "hanging out" in orchard? she said she used to. so i guess i'd have to. i wonder if my kid one day wld think these thots of me one day too. *circle of life* especially of late, i am more than appreciative for the love n' gifts tt life entails. mama got me the newest by patricia cornwell which i cannot wait to cuddle in bed to read. pat is a genious (sp??) n' i've been waiting heaps-ages for her newest. "cause of death".. the one-sitting-read.
"our hearts will stay broken for the rest of our lives, and we will never be done with the people who pass through here" - 'dr. scarpetta' in "cause of death"; head medical examiner describing her feelings towards the dead bodies tt goes thru the mortuary for her examination.
make it a better place.for and for me. and the entire human race. there are.. people dying. if u care enough for the living. make a better place for u and for me.
