time: 3:58am
music: never again - justin timberlake.
mood: shleepy.
i dont know you. but i see you.. . yet, i dont feel you. its insane how many thoughts of you can run through this mind at one moment. consciously, i think about eight or so. .. but unconsciously, i forgot how many million (so i think). you n' i alone on an empty carousel spinning. n' i know you. in bright white crimson, i see you, a tirade of sleeping moons a chorus of stars, but i dont feel you. only you as waking headaches swimming sloppily through heavy clouds of hangovers from yesternights. i see you, but i dont feel you. you smile the inspiration onto empty canvases and peel paint that scars and pain forgot were there. i see you. you love me. but i dont feel you, as necks stretch from social hangxiety, and bang lightly against the glass ceiling covered in smoke and ashes when the wind stopped gushing for a day. when stars fall n' life stops spinning.
"i love you. you dont have to be afraid anymore."
"but im not afraid ?"
"i know hun, its alright. i wont ever leave you. never. marry me ?"
it would be right in my secret garden, that we'd find our new beginning,
he asked me to marry him.
so, i did the only thing possible - i gazed back at him, calm and grateful, smiled that smile i know he likes [well, 'love' now]. and i asked him to marry me back.
now, would it make sense if i said we've met before ?
>>>>>
ark. time check, its blardy 3:30 in the morning n' im conjuring mr. knight-in-shinning-armour n' marriage? tsk* one too many coffee todayi rck'n. tsk*tsk.
but otherwise, hello wervies (lovelies)!!!,
its been heapsages since i last started an entry with a greeting such as .. well, technically, this isnt the start. so .. i'll just shuddup about that right about now.
wkend; the-whole-family (yes, even the-brother *surprise*surprise*, n' the-nyai) spent the night at LF where nothing (as usual) happened. just vcd marathons, which kinda rock cos its about the only time we cld get everyone in one place, heapsa feasting on gd cheap food n' at night, the near-impossible feat of sleeping thru my nyai's snores. some drama-mama at the customs, but other than confiscated bubble gums, everything went alright.
met up with the gang again. that's the fourth time this week. and fourth time late night out; as in past midnight-late, which is like WHOAH-late in my parents' rule book. alriiighhhhtttttt, i suppose, i've worried ma n' pa sufficiently with my late nights out, especially with my un-contactable state (yes, the hp is STILL down). so, i shall strive, for the next few days to be a gd girl. *insert sweet innocent smile right about here*.
the original bowling/movie plan for today was scraped thanks to errrr.. me. (cos i was stuck in JB still). so when i finally got back into sg, the idea had been changed to just a dinner date at al-ameen. (sorry guys!!). ladidadida --- su n' i decided to hang at lis' place till then, cos we were.. bored. i was late of course. but, being the charming baby girlie of his, i managed to charm papa to drive us both to lis' place. -hehe. so that's us getting across to the other side of woodlands without getting wet. hurray. i dont know why im bothering with details cos its blardy 4. so i'll just shuddup n' sleep.
* click here for more pictures
when we reached lis'... n' i (saje2) took over her mac..
then, we met the others.
faris n' su had already left by the time az, zif and faie arrived much later...
just everyone.
i was sooo tired by then.
ouh. n' our policeman, mr. diyar was the photographer. so here's a pic of lis, him and i, while we were waiting for the last bus ... ..
ok la. i think i've ranted enough. click on more pictures to .. eerrr see more pictures ? hehe.
i shall sought to attempt meeting my knight in slumber kingdom now..
oh btw, MR. DIYAR, GO SLEEP NOW !!!
gdnight weerrr!!! (world)
