she thinks happiness is a mat that sits at the doorway.

 

hihi*

 

so im back in cold freezing melbourne. oh.the.contrasts. i hate it! hate the humid in singapore and hate the icy air in melby. so its true - you.can.never.be.satisfied.with.what.u.have - oh ungrateful human you! hahaha. ok im being melodramatic. and nopes i'm not as happy as tis entry might come off as. im actually quite the depressed soul tonight. i miss singapore! i miss my mama and papa and my bro and sis. i just miss everything in singapore. ok .. not so much the heat but still. i miss singapore. have i said that enough? i miss singapore! i miss singapore!!!! =(

 

never.the.mind - i'll be coming back end of the year; hopefully. it seems different. there! i.told.u.so! each semester is a brand new beginning! bad bad start. disagreements, new priorities. do u feel the change in the wind? yeash. i do. i just realised today was prolly my last flight out to melby. for now, i hope it was my last coz im so homesick it's not funny.

 

+ Little Differences +

 
i havent got much to update u all. pretty zapped out actually. didnt sleep the night before. i usually cant sleep a night before my flight. always been that way. so i was online and chatting with 'pakcik' ahmad. haha. yeah mister, same here same here - i thank you too for all we shared yeah? am glad we can still be friends. it ain't easy but hey, it gotta start somewhere yes? and say hihi to nelle for me too.. stay safe!

ok, i realise this isnt a msg bank. but what.the.hey. its my bloggie. right.. so, im back to crapping. i miss those times i'd be typing entries and my mama would be next to me - my peminat setia (no. 1 fan).  gosh! and when my mama hugs me and says i've grown up and gona leave her - mann.. i can almost weep. actually hmm.. uhh.. i kinda did earlier. shhhHH*

ok. happy thoughts kinnie happy thoughts!

beware: im volatile tonight. i.might.just.break.down.and.cry.

yest, at this time, i was at mackers with my family. oOoh* royal.highness.of.cuteness himself was there - i dont know what his name is. no no.. not my random cute guys crushes. this time around the 'prey' is a uh.. 4-5 yrs old boi. he's awesomely cute. like whoah cute! not in a perverted way! horrors* more like "i.want.my.future.son.to.be.like.that" cuteness. pinch cheeks! pinch cheeks!

flight earlier was alright. after 4 yrs doing the same old, excitment from flights just ain't cut it. i miss singapore. sat between two chicks. one's super quiet which suits me well coz i really hate interacting in vehicles. gives me too much of a headspin. the other one was abit aged, but sported two pony tails. cutesy* winks* hehehe. ok, i just got dc again. and ain was about to tell a ghost story. trust this chica to cheer me up. haha. almost a decade of friendship babes! muAcKZz* love yaaaaa! =) 

im strangely sleepy. by right its only 9:28pm in sg. and the night is still young. 11:28pm ozy (same time btw) and im already sleepy. i have a feeling things wont be like how it was last semester. maybe im just being paranoid. i shldnt hope too much. time and again, keeping the faith has only proven to result in heartbreak and disappointment. so now, ain & din are telling me not to cry. hmm. perhaps i shld change my nick and not be so depressed. the crew's split. saddening. thats how it feels anyways. i might put on a movie later and sleep. i wanna sleep. tomorrow's a long day. btw, i cant sms anyone or call in fact. i kinda lost my sim card so till i get a replacement bear with my non-replying-state.

ok. no mood to blog no more. take care u peoples.. kinnie's in melby =( which is saddening but great. i s'pose. sigh* gdnight y'all.......

love; kin h.