"... A little bruised.

A little humbled.

And, hopefully, a little smarter.

I believe we write our own stories

and each time we think we know the end,

--- we don't. ---

Perhaps luck exists somewhere
between the world of planning, the world of chance and in the peace that comes in knowing that we can't just know it all.

Life's funny in that way. Once you look at it with will,

you might just end up right where you belong..."

"... like cherries dipped in chocolate, caramel with whipped cream toppings, you're the sweetest berry on the pie..." she-bangs-today. it is amazing; this circle of life. look at it from an objective point of view n' u end up right where you started, only bruised, humble-er n' inadvertly smarter. my horoscope tells me i have to make my expectations reasonable n' "that later is now". i woke up today at my aunt's, 4 yrs from the first time i left home, finally getting it. I GET IT! recapturing moments when i shut my eyes is equivocal to seeing someone, who looks like me, live the past 4 yrs. so. today. i woke up right where i started from. right where i belong. n' i'm daymned proud of myself, tt i got here intact.

".. can't help this feeling. its a fight that i know i can't win. there's nothing i can do. so im giving in tonight. coz baby you're my kryptonite..." took the train out to the city from berwick at 11 ish. to be reunited with long-lost bestie. *i missed u lings! so enjoy your time with your parents while they're here alright. im still hoping we'd be able to do tt bimbo-walk we incessantly talked about doing last semester down changi airport. together.* i cannot study in silence! tried studyin in the rmit lib for abit but the silence just unnerved me. plus. the heat! today. so hot! i went home and slept.

"... its hard to watch you move on with your life..." in the the spirit of all-things-falling-apart and the dawn of my apocalypse, i indulged myself with 2 kinder buenos, half a packet of a giant 'sweet-chilli-n'-sour-cream' red rock deli, n' three mouthfuls of caramel ice cream. n' alright! i am guilty of having slept of this noon as well.theoretic's on tuesday n' i have just discovered i havent got the prescribed textbook. joy. studying without textbook. genious at work. sighs* these are my last 13 days in melbourne. im sad. altho. im not feeling it just YET. i suppose, being a slow react-or as i am, a mth from now, i'd get smack-bangED in the face with the fact tt i can no longer run back to melbourne to recuperate. no more "speeded-making-up-sessions-with-the-fmly-because-time-is-precious,-n'-tmr-im-gone-again". BECAUSE, im not gona be gone. im gona be there, wide open for issues! - i'll prolly blog again later -