subject: am i mad or is this world insane?
time: 10:47am
music: you're beautiful - james blunt
mood: aggitated

i woke up this morning
expecting
some kind of a big explosion
to change my altogether being.
it doesnt come but i ...
i feel it following me around like a shadow -
it whispers
~* things in my head.
yes i know
it's bright outside
but i am ungraceful
and im always ungrateful,
that's why i
keep myself shut inside.

at this very moment,
i embody everything
- i am the drizzle in the rain,
i am the fading stars,
the dreamy hue of a morning kiss,
i am the rising sun;
more than anything else,
i am the person next to me.
and in stepping outside of my skin,
the little surge of current
through the air churned
everything
and anything
that matters.
'would you pick ignorance over what you have now?'
and i said, with eyes that couldn't stay open,
'yes.'
but don't listen to me.
i am just an inkblot
marring the purity
of a piece of white paper.
poison pretty irises
and suddenly,
there is so much more
*~ that more is nothing
and everything all at once.

am i mad?

or is the world just insane?

p/s: selamat mengerjakan ibadah bulan puasa! =] happy ramadhan!